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Blurb
About the series: At the young age of eighteen, tragedy and
a dark secret force Lara to flee all she has known and loved to start a new
life. Now years later, with a new identity as Amy, she’s finally dared to
believe she is forgotten—even if she cannot forget. But just when she lets her
guard down, the ghosts of her past are quick to punish her, forcing her back on
the run.
On a plane, struggling to face the devastation of losing
everything again and starting over, Amy meets Liam Stone, a darkly entrancing
recluse billionaire, who is also a brilliant, and famous, prodigy architect. A
man who knows what he wants and goes after it. And what he wants is Amy.
Refusing to take “no” as an answer, he sweeps her into a passionate affair,
pushing her to her erotic limits. He wants to possess her. He makes her want to
be possessed. Liam demands everything from her, accepting nothing less. But
what if she is too devastated by tragedy to know when he wants more than she
should give?
Excerpt: Chapter One
Amy…
My name
is all that is written on the plain white envelope taped to the mirror.
I step
out of the stall inside the bathroom of Manhattan’s Metropolitan Museum, and
the laughter and joy of the evening’s charity event I’ve been enjoying fades
away. Fear and dread slam into me, shooting adrenaline through my body. No. No. No. This cannot be happening and
yet it is. It is, and I know what it means. Suddenly, the room begins to shift
and everything goes gray. I fight the flashback I haven’t had in years, but I
am already right there in it, in the middle of a nightmare. The scent of smoke
burns my nose. The sound of blistering screams shreds my nerves. There is pain
and heartache, and the loss of all I once had and will never know again.
Fighting a certain meltdown, I swallow hard and shove away the gut-wrenching
memories. I can’t let this happen. Not here, not in a public place. Not when
I’m quite certain danger is knocking on my door.
On wobbly
knees and four-inch black strappy heels that had made me feel sexy only minutes
before and clumsy now, I step forward and press my palms to the counter. I
can’t seem to make myself reach for the envelope and my gaze goes to my image
in the mirror, to my long white-blond hair I’ve worn draped around my shoulders
tonight rather than tied at my nape, and done so as a proud reflection of the
heritage of my Swedish mother I’m tired of denying. Gone too are the
dark-rimmed glasses I’ve often used to hide the pale blue eyes both of my
parents had shared, making it too easy for me to see the empty shell of a
person I’ve become. If this is what I am at twenty-four years old, what I will
be like at thirty-four?
Voices
sound outside the doorway and I yank the envelope from the mirror and rush into
the stall, sealing myself inside. Still chatting, two females enter the
bathroom, and I tune out their gossip about some man they’d admired at the
party. I suddenly need to confirm my fate. Leaning against the wall, I open the
sealed envelope to remove a plain white note card and a key drops to the floor
that looks like it goes to a locker. Cursing my shaking hand, I bend down and
scoop it up. For a moment, I can’t seem to stand up. I want to be strong. I have to be strong. I shove to my feet
and blink away the burning sensation in my eyes to read the few short sentences
typed on the card.
I’ve found you and so can they. Go to JFK
Airport directly. Do not go home. Do not linger. Locker 111 will have
everything you need.
My heart
thunders in my chest as I take in the signature that is nothing more than a
triangle with some writing inside of it. It’s the tattoo that had been worn on
the arm of the stranger who I’d met only once before. He’d saved my life and
helped me restart my life, and he’d made sure I knew that symbol meant that I
am in danger and I have to run.
I squeeze
my eyes shut, fighting a wave of emotions. Once again, my life is about to be
turned upside down. Once again I will lose everything, and while everything is
so much less than before, it’s all I have. I crumble the note in my hand,
desperate to make it, and this hell that is my reality, go away. After six
years of hiding, I’d dared to believe I could find “normal”, but that was a
mistake. Deep down, I’ve known that since two months ago when I’d left my job
at the central library as a research assistant, to work at the museum. Being
here is treading water too close to the bridge.
I
straighten and listen as the women’s voices fade before the room goes silent.
Anger erupts inside me at the idea that my life is about to be stolen from me
again and I tear the note in tiny pieces, flush them down the toilet and shove
the envelope into the trash. I want to throw away the key too, but some part of
me won’t let that happen. Probably the smart, unemotional part of me that I
hate right now.
Unzipping
the small black purse I have strapped across my chest and over my pale blue
blazer, that despite my tight budget, I’d splurged on for this new job, I drop
the key inside, sealing it away. I’m going to finish my party. Maybe I’m going
to finish my life right here in New York City. The note didn’t say I’d been
found. It only warned I could be found. I don’t want to run again. I don’t. I
need time to think, to process, and that is going to have to wait until after
the party.
Decision
made, I exit the stall, cutting my eyes away from the mirror and heading for
the door. I do not want anyone to see me right now when I have no idea who me
is or will be tomorrow. In a zone, that numb place I’ve used as a survival tool
almost as many times as I’ve tried to find the meaning of that symbol on the
note, I follow the soft hum of orchestra music from well-placed speakers,
entering a room with a high oval ceiling decorated with magnificent artwork. I
tell myself to get lost in the crush of patrons in business attire, while
waiters toting trays offer champagne and finger foods, but I don’t. I simply
stand there, mourning the new life I’ve just begun, and I know is now gone. My
“zone” has failed me.
“Where
have you been?”
The
question comes as Chloe Monroe, the only person I’ve let myself consider a
friend in years, steps in front of me, a frown on her heart-shaped face. From
her dark brown curls bouncing around her shoulders to her outgoing personality
and fun, flirty attitude, she is my polar opposite and I love that about her.
She is everything I am not and hoped I would become. Now I will lose her. Now I
will lose me again.
“Well,”
she prods when I don’t reply quickly enough, shoving her hands onto her hips,
“where have you been?”
“Bathroom,”
I say. “There was a line.” I sound awkward. I feel awkward. I hate how easily
the lie comes to me, how it defines me. A lie is all that I am.
Chloe’s
brow puckers. “Hmmm. There wasn’t one when I was there. I guess I got lucky.”
She waves off the thought. “Sabrina is freaking out over some donation
paperwork she can’t find and says she needs you. I thought you were doing
research When did you start handling donor paperwork?”
“Last
week, when she got overwhelmed,” I say, and perk up at the idea that my new
boss needs me. I don’t need to leave. I need
to be needed even if it’s just for tonight. “Where is she?”
“By the
front desk.” She laces her arm through mine. “And I’m tagging along with you. I
have a sixty-year-old admirer who’s bordering on stalker. I need to hide before
he hunts me down.”
She tugs
me forward, and I let her, too distracted by her words to stop her. She’s
worried about being hunted but I am
the one being hunted. I thought I wasn’t anymore. I thought I was safe, but I
am never safe, and neither is anyone around me. I’ve lived that first hand. I
felt that heartache of loss, and while being alone sucks, losing someone you
care about is far worse.
My
selfishness overwhelms me and I stop dead in my tracks to pull Chloe around to
face me. “Tell Sabrina I’m grabbing the forms and will be right there.”
“Oh. Yes
okay.” Chloe lets go of my arm, and for a moment I fight the urge to hug her,
but that would make her seem important to me, and someone could be watching. I
turn away from her and rush for a door, and I feel sick to my stomach knowing
that I will never see her again.
I finally
exit the side of the building into the muggy August evening, and head for a
line of cabs, but I do not rush or look around me. I’ve learned ways to avoid
attention, and going to work for a place that has a direct link to the world
I’d left behind hadn’t been one of them. It had simply been a luxury I’m now
paying for.
“JFK
Airport,” I pant as I slide into the back of a cab, and rub the back of my neck
at a familiar prickling sensation. A feeling I’d had often my first year on my
own, when I’d been certain danger waited for me around every corner. Hunted. I’m being hunted. All the denial
I own won’t change my reality.
* * * * *
The ride
to the airport is thirty minutes and it takes me another fifteen to find locker
111 once I’m inside the building. I pull it open and there is a carry-on-sized
roller suitcase and a smaller brown leather shoulder bag with a large yellow
envelope sticking up from inside the open zipper. I have no desire to be
watched while I explore what’s been left for me. I remove the locker’s
contents, and follow the sign that indicates a bathroom.
Once
again in a stall, I pull down the baby changer and check the contents of the
envelope on top. There is file folder, a bank card, a cell phone, a passport, a
notecard, and another small sealed envelope. I reach for the note first.
There is cash in the bank account and the
code is 1850. I’ll add more as you need it and until you get fully settled.
You’ll find a new social security card, driver’s license, and passport as well.
You have a complete history to memorize and a résumé and job history that will
check out if looked into. Throw out your cell phone. The new one is registered
under your new name and address. There’s a plane ticket and the keys to an
apartment along with a location. Toss all identification and don’t use your
bank account or credit cards. Be smart. Don’t link yourself to your past. Stay
away from museums this time.
A new
name. That’s what stands out to me. I’m getting another new name. No. No. No. My heart races at the idea. I don’t
want another new name. Even more than I don’t want to be back on the run, I don’t want another new name. I feel
like a girl having her hair chopped off. I’m losing part of myself. After
living a lie for years, I’m losing the only part of my fake identity I’d ever
really accepted as me.
I grab
the passport and flip it open and my hand trembles at the sight of a photo that
is a present-day me. How did this stranger I met only one time in my life get a
picture of me this recent? It doesn’t matter I’d once considered him my
Guardian Angel. I’m freaked out by this. Has he been watching me all this time?
I shiver at the idea, and my only comfort is my new name. I’m now Amy Bensen
rather than Amy Reynolds. I’m still Amy. It is the one piece of good news in
all of this and I cling to it, using it to stave off the meltdown I feel
coming. I just have to hold it together until I get on the plane. Then I can
sink into my seat and think myself into my “zone” that I can’t seem to fully find.
Flipping
open the folder, I find an airline ticket. I’m going to Denver and I leave in
an hour. I’ve never been anywhere but Texas and New York. All I know about
Denver is it’s big, cold, and the next place I will pretend is home when I have
no home. The thought makes my chest pinch, but fear of what might await me if I
don’t run pushes me past it.
I turn
off my cell phone so it won’t ping and stuff it, with everything but my new ID
and plane ticket, back into the envelope. I have my own money in the bank and
I’m not about to get rid of my identification and access to that resource.
Besides, the idea of using a bank card that allows me to be tracked bothers me.
I’ll be visiting the bank tomorrow and removing any cash I can get my hands on.
When I’d been eighteen, naive and alone, I’d blindly trusted a stranger I’d
called my Guardian Angel. I might have to trust him now too, but it won’t be
blindly.
Making my
way to check in, I fumble through using the ticket machine and my new
identification and then track a path to security. A few minutes later, I’m on
the other side of the metal detectors and I stop at a store to buy random
things I might need. All is going well until I arrive at the ticket counter.
“I’m so
sorry, Ms. Bensen,” the forty-something woman begins. “We had an administrative
error and seats were double-booked. We—”
“I have
to be on this flight,” I say in a hissed whispered with my heart in my throat.
“I have to be on this flight.”
“I can
get you a voucher and the first flight tomorrow.”
“No. No.
Tonight. Give someone a bigger voucher to get me a seat.”
“I—”
“Talk to
a supervisor,” I insist, because while avoiding attention means I am not a
pushy person, and despite my initial denial of my circumstances that might
suggest otherwise, I have no death wish. I am alive and plan to stay that way.
She
purses her lips and looks like she might argue, but finally she turns away and
makes a path toward a man in uniform. Their heads dip low and he glances at me
before the woman returns. “We have you on standby and we’ll try to get you on.”
“How
likely is it you’ll get me on?”
“We’re
going to try.”
“Try how
hard?”
Her lips
purse again. “Very.”
I let out
a sigh of relief. “Thank you. And I’m sorry. I have a…crisis of sorts. I really
have to get to my destination.” There is a thread of desperation to my voice I
do not contain well.
Her
expression softens and I know she heard it. “I understand and I am sorry this happened,” she assures me.
“We are trying to make this right and so you don’t panic please know that we
have to get everyone boarded before we make any passenger changes. You’ll
likely be the last on the plane.”
“Thanks,”
I say, feeling awkward. “I’ll just go sit.” Definitely flustered, I turn away
from the counter. Ignoring the few vacant seats, I head to the window and
settle my bags on the floor beside me. Leaning against the steel handrail on
the glass, I position myself to see everyone around me to be sure I’m prepared
for any problem before it’s on me. And that’s when the room falls away, when my
gaze collides withhis.
He is
sitting in a seat that faces me, one row between us, his features handsomely
carved, his dark hair a thick, rumpled finger temptation. He’s dressed in faded
jeans and a dark blue t-shirt, but he could just as easily be wearing a finely
fitted suit and tie. He is older than me, maybe thirty, but there is a
worldliness, a sense of control and confidence, about him that reaches beyond
years. He is money, power, and sex, and while I cannot make out the color of
his eyes, I don’t need to. All that matters is that he is one hundred percent
focused on me, and me on him. A moment ago I was alone in a crowd and suddenly,
I’m with him. As if the space between us is nothing. I tell myself to look
away, that everyone is a potential threat, but I just…can’t.
His eyes
narrow the tiniest bit, and then his lips curve ever so slightly and I am
certain I see satisfaction slide over his face. He knows I cannot look away.
I’ve become his newest conquest, of which I am certain he has many, and I’ve embarrassingly
done so without one single moan of pleasure in the process.
“Inviting
our first-class guests to board now,” a female voice says over the intercom.
I blink
and my new, hmmm, whatever he is, pushes to his feet and slides a duffle onto
his shoulder. His eyes hold mine, a hint of something in them I can’t quite
make out. Challenge, I think. Challenge? What kind of challenge? I don’t have
time to figure it out. He turns away, and just like that I’m alone again.
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Reality #1
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About the Author:
New York Times and USA
Today Bestselling author Lisa Renee Jones is the author of the highly acclaimed
INSIDE OUT SERIES, and is now in development by Suzanne Todd (Alice in
Wonderland) for cable TV. In addition, her Tall, Dark and Deadly series and The
Secret Life of Amy Bensen series, both spent several months on a combination of
the NY Times and USA Today lists.
Since
beginning her publishing career in 2007, Lisa has published more than 40 books
translated around the world. Booklist says that Jones suspense truly sizzles
with an energy similar to FBI tales with a paranormal twist by Julie Garwood or
Suzanne Brockmann.
Prior to
publishing, Lisa owned multi-state staffing agency that was recognized many
times by The Austin Business Journal and also praised by Dallas Women Magazine.
In 1998 LRJ was listed as the #7 growing women owned business in Entrepreneur Magazine.
Lisa loves to hear from her
readers. You can reach her at on her website and she is active on twitter and
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2 comments:
Have you read this one? Trying to decide whether to get it. LOL
I haven't read it yet, but did get the first book in the series. :)
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